Since I started dating my boyfriend in 2010, I’ve gained over 30 pounds. I feel very guilty about it. Like I’ve let him down, but more importantly, I’ve let myself down.
I’ve tried many times to lose weight, and I’m usually pretty successful at it, but after a month or two I give up and go back to not working out and eating like crap. In January I lost 10 pounds. I know what I need to do to lose weight. Then I went to New Orleans for Mardi Gras and gained 6 pounds in 5 days. Pretty depressing. That’s where I’m at right now. I haven’t lost, I haven’t gained. I’ve been doing the bare minimum to get by, to not gain any more weight. So, I guess that’s a little better than completely throwing in the towel.
But I’m pretty ready. March was a bad month. My birthday, my best friend’s birthday, another friend’s birthday, a huge brunch event, etc. But now I don’t have shit planned other than the tapping of a newly released maple bacon beer on the 9th. So, starting tomorrow I’m for real back on the wagon again. Tomorrow is meatless Monday which will be a good segway into the juice cleanse I’m going to do Tuesday-Thursday. I’m not doing it to lose weight (I didn’t lose weight the last time) but to reset my damn taste buds. That was the biggest benefit I got from it the last time. Right now the only thing appetizing to me is burgers and carbs. I want to like to eat fruits and vegetables again. Then I’m going to do a Paleo-ish diet. I mean, I’m going to stick to it as much as I can, but I’m going to drink a beer or two and eat some cheese and maybe drink a glass of milk every now and then.
I’m going to post my progress on here. Not that I have any followers, but posting it on a somewhat public forum might make me feel accountable.
I took a before pic. I’m sure as hell not going to post it here. I don’t have the balls. I’ll keep that to myself as motivation. But I will disclose that I weighed myself today and it was a hundred and fucking sixty nine pounds. I’m sure it’ll be more in the morning cause’ as I’m writing this I’m drinking a Dos Equis Amber and about to go to Smokey Bones. Won’t be doing this for a while